Tuesday. 4.1.08 8:04 am
I tried to revive out one of my few essays from their respectively folders during the weekends. And I failed to do so.
Currently they are still lying dead in their graveyard without much/any progress.
Articles/rants that normally took minutes to finish in the past would take me hours now. And during the process, only agony and disappointment will evoke in me.
The feeling is nothing near to the "fun" that I have received from writing in the past.
No more fun
The only reason for above is probably due to my disappointment in my writings nowadays.
My current writing style no longer makes me satisfied, and many of my previous writings make me shameful.
It makes me feel like an idiot that fails badly in the language of English.
A good analogy of my current situation would be an idiot pushing a stationary wall without moving an inch.
I need a break through before I eventually get too bored of writing and stop it completely. I am a failure, I need both help and hope.
I am comparable to this man!
There are two major things that I would love to improve on now.
Firstly, I want to be more concise and more authoritative.
I know that rants in general are supposed to be lengthy and repetitive.
But for me, it's not just only the ranting articles. My whiny and lengthy writing habits apply to all my writings.
I dislike that style, I need a change.
I want to present my rants in a more concise in authoritative way.
I have tried to do so, but I can't.
Guess is, my current command of English is too pathetic for that to happen.
Secondly, I hate my excessive usage of adjectives.
I used to think that adjectives are what that makes English interesting. And it's essential for a good piece of essay, just like how spice is essential to making of curry.
For now, I am having strong doubts for it.
I am starting to reduce the usage of adjectives as much as I can nowadays. And I would try to use them only when they are a necessity.
I am starting to be aware that too much adjective makes a writing feel oily and it strongly suggests that the writer is desperately trying to impress readers.
The above is definitely not what I am trying to achieve, thus a change is needed.
Change is needed, YES WE CAN!
I know it's hard for my style to change overnight.
At the very least, it would take me two months.
Will be working towards it not for results, but for being contended for myself.
ARGH!! I can't rant like how I did before.
The feeling sucks so bad. Just like how you are unable to shit when you are suffering from constipation.
CUNT SHIET
PS: I ROCK, I JUST PASTED THE ABOVE POST ON MS WORD, AND NO FUCKING GRAMMAR MISTAKES. MUAHAHHA.
pls don't forget to recycle the paper after u crumbled it. and only write when u r in the mood otherwise it would give unsatisfaction.
» renaye on 2008-04-01 10:27:54
The only time when I write is when I am sitting in front of my comp.
» L-Lawliet on 2008-04-01 10:51:35
i sometimes write the story in my head and hold it until i have the burning inspiration to write it in the laptop. or i would just write a rough idea and then would get back to it.
» renaye on 2008-04-02 10:37:50
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